July 25th, 2007

I've been contemplating how this affects others lately.  I talked with my son a little bit yesterday about it.  He's not one to initiate serious conversations and is uncomfortable bringing up anything in the first place, so he's not told anyone about my transition yet.  We decided that I should tell the parents of one of his friends, as he felt that he sees this kid enought that he probably should be made aware.  So telling his parents and letting them handle it we figured would be best.  We don't think that will change anything, as he's sure this friend will be cool about it.  He considered a couple other friends, but decided to hold off on letting them know.  I suggested that when one of his friends knows, he might talk with him about it.  I'm hoping if he talks to others about it, he'll feel more comfortable with things.  Don't get me wrong - he's not having much apparent trouble with it now as we still pretty much do the same things together we've always done, but I think anyone I know should at least talk to someone else just as a quick 'feelings check' to see how it may affect them.

Most people have been accepting and treating me pretty much the same.  In fact, I'm probably being treated better, however, I still worry who out there is avoiding me or otherwise uncomfortable with it.   Not everyone will have the benefit of seeing it all gradually.  Even if I dress in guy clothes and don't wear makeup, my features will be more feminine as time marches on.  I expect the big change after FFS, will probably catch everyone's attention. 

It will be a major change in my looks, and I imagine anyone I know will have some reaction or feeling about it.  I guess maybe I should go around and talk to them about it.   Not that it would change things, but letting them know I'm still me might go along way.  What's important, is that my friends are still my friends, and I'm still close to my family.