August 6th, 2007

I got plenty of feed back from my 'Ugly Leann' blog.  BTW, did you catch my allusion to the show 'Ugly Betty' because they have a transgender character?   Anyway, the general concensus was for me to quit worrying so much about how I look and to concentrate on things that go right.  So I'm looking in the mirror with a less critical eye.  Thanks to everyone who offered support and encouragement. 

Which brings me to today's topic - Getting by with a little help from my friends.   I've lived my life with a mentality that I will handle all my problems by myself, and no one needs to get involved.  Certainly, I could not let anyone get close enough to really understand me.  But I've discovered this past weekend that I can't maintain this go it alone strategy and need support from other people.   Not just about my looks or help with transitioning, but with life problems that I'd have anyway.  Keeping it all to myself deprived me of some much needed objectivity, and now that I've spoken with a few people about some personal problems, I do feel more capable to solving them and putting them behind me.  Perhaps I've always known what to do, but without being able to get the opinions and more importantly, feel the support from others I could not get to the point where I can achieve anything.

I also recognize the need to reach out to others as well.  I too can offer that support to others and I'm sure my life will be enriched by getting to them.  I'm looking forward to sitting down and talking with a few people in my life and learning more about them, so my goal for the next week or two is to do just that.